A crazy battle between loving someone and prioritizing your inner peace
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2 years later. The crazy battle is over. I am proud to say that I chose myself 2 years ago. I cannot believe that I did it when I really thought I can’t because I’m really head over heels when deeply inlove. But it’s a very liberating feeling when you let go of someone who has been putting you under the rock for so long.
Now I can finally say that I am with someone who loves me more than I love myself. Basically, he loves everything about me as I love everything about him. From the beginning, he’s willing to do so much just to make me happy and after a year and half, he still does. He supports me in everything that I do and the things that I would like to do. And also, to the clothes that I want to wear (a bonus). He is selfless when it comes to people that he loves. Never in my life would I thought that there would be someone who can love me like this. A kind of love that I’ve never felt before. A type of love that I’ve given to the wrong people before. Finally, it came. And this time, I never want to let this go ~
And it ended. Not because of him but because of me. I am a broken piece of shit. I cant see my self being with another person anymore.. life sucks
Now, the real battle is about toughness and survival. I am scared of what’s going to happen with my life. Everything right now is inevitable. It feels like you can lose something in blink of an eye. In fact, I think I haven’t really accomplished anything in my life. I am grateful. But what should I do? What’s my next move? How do we overcome this situation? I am lucky to be still able to breathe but why is everything so stagnant? I’m hungry for progression but how do I start? Whom should I trust? Where did my passion go?
A crazy battle between loving someone and prioritizing your inner peace
-mg
2 years later. The crazy battle is over. I am proud to say that I chose myself 2 years ago. I cannot believe that I did it when I really thought I can’t because I’m really head over heels when deeply inlove. But it’s a very liberating feeling when you let go of someone who has been putting you under the rock for so long.
Now I can finally say that I am with someone who loves me more than I love myself. Basically, he loves everything about me as I love everything about him. From the beginning, he’s willing to do so much just to make me happy and after a year and half, he still does. He supports me in everything that I do and the things that I would like to do. And also, to the clothes that I want to wear (a bonus). He is selfless when it comes to people that he loves. Never in my life would I thought that there would be someone who can love me like this. A kind of love that I’ve never felt before. A type of love that I’ve given to the wrong people before. Finally, it came. And this time, I never want to let this go ~
